What was I thinking?


Through the years, my sister and I have been your typical siblings. WeCatherine1‘ve loved and we’ve fought. I will admit the majority of the issues we have had down through the years have been a result of me not knowing when to stop. I will also admit that I love her dearly.

You see the picture to the left? That smile? Well, that smile is what I think of, when I think of her.

So many times I have looked back on my days as a pesky little brother and thought, “What was I thinking? Why did she forgive me for that?”

My Aunt Bernadette wrote me some wise words that I want to share…

I really believe that there is no failure unless we fail to try and try again. I’ve always told my kids that one of God’s great gifts to the human race is the second chance (and 3rd and 100th…) Every time we draw breath, we can do a little better, try a little harder and work to forgive ourselves for being flawed human beings (this one is hard for me), just as God forgives us. We have to keep moving forward and try and learn from what is done. (Bernadette Burks – 10/4/2015)

No offense to Aunt Bern, but Jesus said it best.

Matthew 18:21-22 NKJV Then Peter came to Him and said, “Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? Up to seven times?” (22) Jesus said to him, “I do not say to you, up to seven times, but up to seventy times seven.

It all comes down to “do a little better, try a little harder and work to forgive ourselves…”  In other words it is solely a mental process.

“What was I thinking?”  In some cases, we might actually say, “Well at least I was thinking!”

It is all a mental process. Correcting the mistakes we make requires our thinking. Consider what The Apostle Paul told the Philippians.

Philippians 4:6-9 NKJV Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; (7) and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. (8) Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy–meditate on these things. (9) The things which you learned and received and heard and saw in me, these do, and the God of peace will be with you.

That is just an amazing passage of scripture for me. A mental work in progress to achieve a specific goal.


Catherine, I know you have forgiven me for all of my antics when we were kids, but let me ask your forgiveness one more time and let you know that I am ‘doing a little better, trying a little harder and working to forgive myself.’

I just don’t know, What I was Thinking! <grin>



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